I totally have no idea what's happening to me. Gosh, I feel so weak. Everything just weigh down on me, I'm feeling damn stressed out now. Yet I'm not going to complain, I cant complain. I have to endure it, I've to prove that I've the ability to cope. It's going to be a tough battle, I know, but what would I stand to lose from it? Time, maybe, but I just have to do it..

Fell down twice this week, both during trainings. How unlucky can I get? From minor bruises until now, I cant even walk properly. Would I recover in time for on season trainings, for Nationals? I'm afraid, I'm scared of what lies ahead of me. If everything is already predestined, I doubt mine would be a smoothsailing one. But what else can I do other than accept? I've not done well in anything before. Yet I hope, I wish, that maybe this year I may have the chance to make my mark, to really excel. The problem is, can I?

“Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.”

“We all at certain times in our lives find ourselves broken. True strength is found in picking up the pieces.”