seriously, i'm irritated with alot of stuffs.
alot of problems, most i dunno how to solve. haix.
the root of the problems most probbly is caused by myself bahh..
so yeahh, cant blame anyone; not that i wan to. lol.
but wad can i do, this is me, I cant simply change anytime i wan to, I cant jus change overnight..


Just realise that i didnt really change much since the start of this year.
2009 is ending soon, yet i'm still comparing myself with others, sensitive to wad other ppl see me. like wth, i was supposed to change that bad habit?!
until when would i become a better person? hahas it suddenly seemed so far..><
I'm still afraid to be left out.. i hate being lonely; i wonder how some ppl are able to talk so easily with others. havin a common topic isnt easy, especialy for me. I'm not so into korean stuffs or wad.. so it's like crap, listening to them talk about something i totally hav no idea on.
yeah fine, i'm jealous, wadever.

thursday went to work at chevron house outlet, cos not enough crew.
darren's funny! haha he's always behind calling me and valerie koh to smile. xDD
but yeah, valerie's skills are quite good, i mus admit.
after that chionged to training at bishan. forgot the programme le, jus noe that it's not a good training for me..
went behind and cried abit, cos was disappointed with myself.
but thanks to kenzo and eugene, i did skipping and bridge. ;D
friday went to work again, after 2pm there's seriously very little ppl.
den joked with darren, including richard oso, opps.. ;P
i actually thought richard was older than darren!! i'm sorry..
exchanged numbers with valerie koh and kian how.
lols jia meng came while i was eating my lunch, which was sudden? haha.
after that went art fren den went cp to work again, though i was alr very tired. hah.
relative came on fri too.:D
sat went to sentosa with cousins, den rushed to work.
gosh, i was 30mins late. like that's the first time i'm so late. =X
but ah shuen very good de mahh, hahas.
today counter got me valerie and kong wei!
so fun, muhahahha.
val went to de lobby in the end, so me and kong wei and ah shuen started chatting.
okay, i admit, i like to gossip. xP
i should learn to control my laughter, haha.
not going to elaborate much but yeahh, it was the most enjoyable. ;)

I'll have to enjoy myself while i can, next year is sure gonna be busy..
but still, wad's my definition of being happy?
can i really be contented?
can i really enjoy wad i'm doing?
hahas haix..
this is sure a long post. but it wont be anytime soon which i've the time to do so again.