someone asked me today why my posts are so emo.. hahas. To tell teh truth, I dunno too. maybe because I want to vent out the anger, and sense of unfairness in me? Nonetheless, things are still not going too well for me. studies are going downhill man. I should sleep early and stop playing aroung, watching dramas, but still, I cant seem to get the motivation to study. I cant even focus in class lo. always yawning and wanting to sleep. omg. somemore tmr will be missing SS lesson. oh great. should i be sacrificing my lessons for the AYG Games Village thing? It's like a rare oppurtunity, I noe.. but.. haix. This is just crap. and after school going to watch the AYG finals. haix. 400m already ran, 1500m oso. 800m i'm not sure. so wad's there to watch? zzz.. Training on Saturday. maybe sentosa on sunday. I'm not managing my time well.. Plus, I really dun like the class to be spreading rumours about me.. SERIOUSLY I dun like jonathan phang lo. It's just making things worse for me.. should change my seat i guess. dun really like sitting at the last row.. but junmeng is okay and he noe alot. so it's good sitting with him.. lols. ART IS STILL NOT DONE! i'm dead meat..


zh told me that i should get over him.. hahahs I noe. but yeah.. I'm trying. soon I'll be able to forget him. Time will heal all wounds. :) (him as in another guy.. not zh. hahas)

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sometimes in school I'm not even sure I'm really happy, or I pretend to be happy/cheerful. but one thing I'm sure of is, being with friends and playing are definitely happier than at home. no one understands me, no one knows wad i'm going through. life is getting more and more difficult for me, and challenges are up ahead. I know I'm going to stress myself out sooner or later. It's just a matter of time before I really shut myself up, and all that everyone sees is just the fake me.. I'm not hoping for that day though..