well, it had been ages since i last blogged. I finally watched finish Boys over Flowers after so long. lol. Many things happened these few weeks.. but I don't think i'm going to list everything out bah. but yeah.. I should be able to start posting more often already since i'm not going to watch anymore shows. I realised today that I'm seriously very very off form. i maintained my 400m timing.. haix. I shouldn't stay stagnant at 73s! but my 800m was worst.. why on earth did I went back to 3 min?! this sucks, seriously. cried after the run. okay not exactly cried, but got tears lo. lols. I seriously don't know what happened to me. Having flu isn't an excuse for my timing to become so bad right? nothing goes well for me.. until now i still do not know how to do my art homework, and I haven't even go to the library to research. crap. what the hell am I doing? I'm back to procrastinating again. homework are all left undone, and everyday I'm just slacking my time off. went to watch a movie last sunday. Terminator Salvation. did I spell wrong? lols. It was not bad actually. quite interesting, but it was a pity i didn't watch the previous one, so some parts i didnt really understand. Okay, I'm ending here. trying to see wad I can do lo. should I start studying?

sometimes i dunno wad I can do, and wad i should do. i'm really confused. i dunno why, but it's just that i can't really fit in with them. often i would feel left out, and i dunno how to start a topic to talk about with them. or rather, i dunno any common topic to talk with them about. i dun understand how she's able to become so close with them so easily. I've tried to.. but it's not really 'rewarding' erm i think that's a wrong use of word.. i really dunno wad to do. i hate those kind of lonely feeling, when everyone's got someone to talk to, and i'm all alone. it always happens, especially when the group i'm in is an odd number. haix. actually there's something else i wanna talk about, but i dunno if i shd. lols. seriously, sometimes i really wonder if i'm that insignificant. i doubt that anyone would bother to ask about me if i disappeared? and i dun feel that i've done anything for the team at all lo. I dun think i've helped in any way.. haix. why is everything going the wrong way for me? why cant everything just run smoothly? Studies, Track, and Life. everything just went wrong. i dun understand!