yesterday's 4x400m was a disappointment. didnt managed to get into fianls, was 9th. I'm seriously upset and angry at myself. if I knew I would've ran faster and pushed more. I didnt think i ran all out.. I was caught up by anderson.. crap. This seriously sucks man... ARG. I HATE IT! I dun understand why i'm like so slow.. I missed my chance! all by one position! why?! zzz...

okay, I know I have to stop thinking about it, because it's over already, and nothing could be done to change it. I have to accept the fact that I didn't managed to qualify for all the events I raced (except 4x100m), whether or not I missed by 1 position or what. The fact is that I really didnt qualify, so what for say how much you missed by? All these are challenges which I have gone through, and I have gained much valuable experience through them. As what Elwin said, I should be happy for breaking my Personal bests, and I am glad that both my individual events, I had ran my personal bests. So there's nothing to be upset about. Going into the Finals are chances to prove that you are among the bests. As long as I put in effort, I am sure that next year, I'll definitely do well and be among the top 16. It is not impossible.


I was pretty tired today after the 400m run yesterday. didn't managed to revise for my tests today and tmr. so yeah, screwed my maths and chemistry tests. I shant think too much about them, cos it's my fault for not revising earlier. Of course I won't blame myself too. The most important one is still the MID-YEAR exams, which is 15 days away. considering that I'm practically wasting most of my time away, and yeah, still procrastinating, I probably wouldn't be able to study for all my subjects fully and successfully. well, what can I do? Forcing myself also won't help much.

I ran my 2.4km for napfa today. Hope to do well, though i was quite disappointed with my performance today. Stomach cramp like siao, It was worse than stitch.. didnt know how I'd managed to run my cross-country last month(I think). my endurance then was much better than today. I actually stopped at the dnt block during my last round!! omg. at least i could open stride at the end. I think.. I could sprint all out.. haix. but well it was over. cant really do anything about it. Just have to wait for the results tmr bahh. hahas at least I came in second of the class. first was junhao.. sianzz.



I have thought things through. We have to go through many obstacles and challenges in our whole life. What matters most is the process, and the amount of effort put in. The results are just bonuses. I have done my best, and that is what matters the most.