This, is LIFE...

♥ Wednesday, April 29, 2009

This, is LIFE

wow.. I'm dead tired today.. ytd ran 2.4 in the morning, den afternoon went for training. drained my energy away hahas. but the training was beneficial yeas. I swear I'm going to improve in my events by the end of this year. and I'm going to run the all comers meet. I'm not going to be like this year, missing the acm, and thus cant qualify for national juniors. I don't have much time. It's going to be my last year lerhh. I want to go national juniors!!
omg body ache now.. hand tired like siao. dunno how do I complete my SBQ test for history tmr.. sian. I've no mood to do anything! Yet I've only a few weeks to do my art prep work. and I've to manage my midyear revisions for other subjects as well. omg.

ENDURE! I've to learn to endure. all these are part and parcel of life. overcome it, and I'll be able to achieve greater things.

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8:54:00 PM

♥ Tuesday, April 28, 2009

This, is LIFE

hahas.. I promised myself to be tougher. YET I cried in class today.. didnt noe wad's wrong with me. cant I just control?!

haix. I tried. really i did. I didnt compare, I controlled my urge. But I was really unhappy. why didnt i do well?? wad did I not understand? I had revised, although not really thoroughly, but quite a lot lerhh.. Just why didnt I score? damn pissed with myself. screwed up all my test 3. not one [at least not yet] got a good grade. okay, I didnt fail, but it was close to..

I think the only thing that was worth rejoicing over is that I finally ran a sub 11 for my 2.4km! my timing is 10:52. Thanks to JUNHAO! who helped me in my mentality for my 3rd round. if not i cant endure le..

why is it that I have no one to turn to now? everyone's so busy, I dunno whether i would be disturbing him if i called.. haix.

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9:08:00 PM

♥ Friday, April 24, 2009

This, is LIFE

okays, nothing to post actually, just on comp to chat today. hahas. so yeah, bye lo. zz.

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10:50:00 PM

♥ Tuesday, April 21, 2009

This, is LIFE

yesterday's 4x400m was a disappointment. didnt managed to get into fianls, was 9th. I'm seriously upset and angry at myself. if I knew I would've ran faster and pushed more. I didnt think i ran all out.. I was caught up by anderson.. crap. This seriously sucks man... ARG. I HATE IT! I dun understand why i'm like so slow.. I missed my chance! all by one position! why?! zzz...

okay, I know I have to stop thinking about it, because it's over already, and nothing could be done to change it. I have to accept the fact that I didn't managed to qualify for all the events I raced (except 4x100m), whether or not I missed by 1 position or what. The fact is that I really didnt qualify, so what for say how much you missed by? All these are challenges which I have gone through, and I have gained much valuable experience through them. As what Elwin said, I should be happy for breaking my Personal bests, and I am glad that both my individual events, I had ran my personal bests. So there's nothing to be upset about. Going into the Finals are chances to prove that you are among the bests. As long as I put in effort, I am sure that next year, I'll definitely do well and be among the top 16. It is not impossible.

I was pretty tired today after the 400m run yesterday. didn't managed to revise for my tests today and tmr. so yeah, screwed my maths and chemistry tests. I shant think too much about them, cos it's my fault for not revising earlier. Of course I won't blame myself too. The most important one is still the MID-YEAR exams, which is 15 days away. considering that I'm practically wasting most of my time away, and yeah, still procrastinating, I probably wouldn't be able to study for all my subjects fully and successfully. well, what can I do? Forcing myself also won't help much.

I ran my 2.4km for napfa today. Hope to do well, though i was quite disappointed with my performance today. Stomach cramp like siao, It was worse than stitch.. didnt know how I'd managed to run my cross-country last month(I think). my endurance then was much better than today. I actually stopped at the dnt block during my last round!! omg. at least i could open stride at the end. I think.. I could sprint all out.. haix. but well it was over. cant really do anything about it. Just have to wait for the results tmr bahh. hahas at least I came in second of the class. first was junhao.. sianzz.

I have thought things through. We have to go through many obstacles and challenges in our whole life. What matters most is the process, and the amount of effort put in. The results are just bonuses. I have done my best, and that is what matters the most.

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8:05:00 PM

♥ Sunday, April 19, 2009

This, is LIFE

YTD went to school to pei XinHui for air rod. and yea.. a lot of things happen which i wont disclose. lol. went to library and met Eugene and ZhaoWei. I didnt see Jonathan and BaoSheng, so was shocked when i noticed them lol. crap rite? okays so tried to do a bit of homework, but didnt feel like it.. decided to do it the next day. I'm PROCRASTINATING! omg. so went to play volleyball with them; eugene went home first. hahas it was fun! yay! gosh we're like playing it so dangerously, the ball rolled to the road for a few times le.. hahas. was supposed to take bus, but ZhaoWei suggested to take cab, cos we just missed our bus. so cabbed to outside amk library, den he walked home, while i changed bus.

TODAY was a bad day for me. I was damn grumpy, and didnt feel like doin anything. was about to break down, but controlled my tears. I must stay strong, shouldnt be so weak everytime. but haix, exams are just around the corner, and I'm like still procrastinating.. crap. so well, have to complete eng and chi hw! damn..

4x400m! mus get into finals!!

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9:33:00 PM

♥ Friday, April 17, 2009

This, is LIFE

YAY! 4x100m relay got into finals!! I'm going to get sub 70 for 400m !! so that 4x400m will get an even higher chance to get into finals!!

I CAN DO IT! MUST BE POSITIVE! I MUST NOT LET MY MENTALITY FAIL ME!!!

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10:12:00 PM

♥ Thursday, April 16, 2009

This, is LIFE

wow.. I screwed my 400m race on tues.. didnt have the mood to run, and mentality wasnt there. haix. wad am I thinking??!! but ohh well, its over, and I can do nothing. timing was 73:16 didnt break my pb. just nice reached my pb.. wth. I would at least feel a bit better if i got a 72secs.. I really want to tlk to someone! Elwin, or Nijun. but then again, I am afraid of bothering Elwin over and over again, yet I cant meet nijun that often too. haix. I dunno who I can talk to, who will be able to understand me.

I'm running 4x400m relay next monday, and I'm goin to miss my physics practical, which is impt for SPA. crap. It's not like we'll be able to get into semifinals. can we? zz.. try my best bahh.

One thing is for sure, I'M GOING TO TRAIN EXTRA EXTRA HARD AFTER MYE! I'll improve my 800m timing to 2:34 by next year NATIONALS. I'm NOT going to be the FIRST NON-FINALIST AGAIN.. haix. and yeah, not forgetting my 400m too. try to get 68s bahh. (:
ALL THE WAY!

I'm upset yea.. can I talk to nijun about all my probs? I'm not sure.. how?

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9:50:00 PM

♥ Monday, April 13, 2009

This, is LIFE

today's physics test was screwed.. didnt managed to complete it. haix. nvm.. enough of this, I've got sth worst to complain about..

I'M THE 17TH IN THE 800M! JUST ONE MORE TO FINALS [top 16]! CRAP SIA..
okay.. I'm not saying that i'm not contented with my timing of 2:48:57 [yay! I broke my PB]
but hey.. If only I'm one second faster.. I really regretted my decision. I slowed down at the starting of the second round.. Just because I was leading, and I was scared that I'm goin too fast. Why did I slow down!! zz..
But nonetheless, I really gained a lot of experience through this race. Thanks to Donovan who taught me to start fast and maintain my speed throughout the race. It really helped! YAY!
hahas and thanks Elwin for the two mental skills you've taught me. I really focused on myself during the race, and i'm not distracted by others, nor nervous when I'm running. I dunno why, it just automatically came to me. but yeah, it's a good thing. at least I broke my pb..

haix. tried not to cry at the stadium.. It just that the 800m finals just 与我擦肩而过. This feeling is really... depressing.. jus by 1 sec!! wth! but yeah.. I broke down when I reached home. now i'm feeling better lerhh.. have thought things through. there's no point crying over split milk yea.. I'll just have to qualify for SEMIFINALS in 400m tmr! TOP 24! ALL THE WAY!

endure! I have to. I cant wait for next year already. It's too late. I have to give my best tmr!

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9:37:00 PM

♥ Sunday, April 12, 2009

This, is LIFE

hmm.. completed all my homework alr. at least, those that i know how to do. the others, most probably copy from others tmr bahh.
homework completed, revision haven started. i started on chem on friday, and a bit on physics, i haven touch the books alr since then.. crap! and I've physics test during recess TMR! zz..
quite nervous about the race tmr. REALLY REALLY HOPE TO RUN WELL! GET INTO FINALS!!
but ohh well.. hope i'm on form tmr. nothing to post actually. lol i'm bored!

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8:57:00 PM

♥ Saturday, April 11, 2009

This, is LIFE

went for sd training today. was fun overall haha!
ate lunch with trackers.. kena scammed(sp) of $3.. damn exp. nvm.
went to elwin's house, there were a total of 8 ppl.
Me, NiJune, Johnray, QiHuan, Natalie, SePent, Pauline, and of cos Elwin
haha played a lot of games, lol I was too 激动！zz. laugh and cried at the same time cos i was always the 'victim' when we play Citadel. but it was fun and exciting! yay!
left at arnd 2.30++
WE SHOULD HAVE LEFT EARLIER!!
so that Elwin's bike wont get stolen.. OMG! the theif was daring.. in broad daylight somemore..
haix. Johnray and his 乌鸦嘴！lol.. oso cant blame anyone. but seriously, it's like why cant the thief but his own bike? steal for wad?
went to northpoint after that. went to mac to study.. Thanks to NIJUNE and JINXING for teaching me maths!! omg I think i'm gonna fail logarithm(sp)? zzz.. have to spend these days usefully, yet must sleep early. NATIONALS ARE TWO DAYS AWAY! crap.. although it's better not to miss any lessons during this crucial time, I WANNA SKIP AS MANY LESSONS AS POSSIBLE!!
PLEASE LET ME PERFORM THIS YEAR!! I REALLY WANT TO GET IN TO THE FINALS, ESP 800M!

is it possible? YES! I MUST tell myself, I CAN DO IT!!

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8:16:00 PM

♥ Thursday, April 9, 2009

This, is LIFE

today training crapped a lot with xinling. hahas. was quite sian at first, den jr told us about the competition things, blah blah.. den is massaging session with gabe. lol poor gabe.. he has to massage so many ppl, he mus be tired lo. i got my first massage today. omg it was damn painful! I cried and laugh and scream. zz. cant endure pain sia.

bus-ed with johnray. chatted a lot with him, and really learnt alot from all the things he'd told me. plus, I should be more confident and positive! ALL THE WAY!

I CAN DO IT! I MUST DO IT! NATIONALS 800M FINALS, HERE I COME!

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8:39:00 PM

♥ Wednesday, April 8, 2009

This, is LIFE

haiz.. it's getting nearer and nearer to that day. I'm afraid, yet I'm confused too. what am I suppose to do? i'm not sure. It's like a few days away, but I still feel not on form. I'm scared I wont be able to perform. somemore it's the test week, I've to mug, and I've to make sure I get enough rest too.. this is bad. I'M NERVOUS AND AFRAID! this sucks..

I'll be missing lessons on monday. Logarithms somemore.. haix. but I dun mind missing on wed though. I wanna get into Finals or semis.. but somehow, I get all those shit lanes. crap. I'll just run my best, and give all i got. especially for the 800m race! I've got to break my pb!! I want to get a 2:45! I dun care whether after the race I'll lactic like siao anot. if I can get in to finals, I'm contented. hahas.. but the aim seems so far.

Have to chiong English ama by today.. sian cant sleep early le. haix..

I have to be more confident!! CRAP..

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9:48:00 PM

♥ Monday, April 6, 2009

This, is LIFE

Quiz tagged by WenChing and WeiLin

Write the names of 21 friends you can think off the top of your head, And then answer the questions. Say you’re guessing if you don’t know, but at least guess on all of them.Once you are done, all these 21 ppl has to do it too. (for those w blogs)

1. Annette
2. ShuHui
3. HuiLin
4. Pauline
5. Jonathan
6. TeoYang
7. QiHuan
8. Natalie
9. NiJune
10. SePent
11. Kenzo
12. YaoYi
13. PeiXuan
14. Valerie
15. LuoMin
16. Michael
17. Michelle
18. MinYi
19. WenChing
20. Samantha
21. Trevis

How did you meet 7? (QiHuan)
- Track and Field! in amkss.:)

What would you do if you and 15 had never met? (LuoMin)
- I wouldn't have known a wonderful and fun senior!! Made my days in badminton in the previous years a joyful one!

What would you do if 20 and 1 dated? (Annette and Samantha)
- impossible. lol they're both girls..

Have you ever seen 17 cry? (michelle)
- erm, i think so?

Would 4 and 16 make a good couple? (Pauline and Michael)
- i dun think that they're each others' type! haha. somemore pauline got someone lerh!!

Do you think 11 is attractive? (Kenzo)
- hmm.. yeah he's not bad.

What’s 2’s favorite color? (ShuHui)
- um i'm not sure. ps!

When was the last time you talked to 9? (NiJune)
- um a few weeks ago.. lol!

What language does 8 speak? (Natalie)
- um English.. duhh.

Who is 13 going out with? (PeiXuan)
- erm, not sure lehhs

What grade is 16 in? (Michael)
- sec three.

Would you ever date 17? (Michelle)
- um.. we're both girls..

Where does 18 live? (MinYi)
- lol.. sengkang.. duh.

What is the best thing about 4? (Pauline)
- she's funny! and yeah cheerful! can talk to her about things :)

What would you like to tell 10 right now? (SePent)
- Jiayous for nationals!

What is the best thing about 20? (Samantha)
- She's my mei! and she really helped me alot in primary school! xD

Have you ever kissed 2? (ShuHui)
- um lol no!
What’s the best memory you have of 5? (jonathan)
- um.. he'd cheer me up when i'm down. :D

When’s the next time you’re going to see 4? (pauline)
- tmr in school! and training too!

How is 7 different from 6? (QiHuan and Teo Yang)
- one's a guy, one's a girl. lol.

Is 2 pretty? (ShuHui)
- hmmm, she sort of pretty.

What was your first impression of 15? (LuoMin)
- cheerful!

How did you meet 3? (HuiLin)
- amkss Track and Field!

Is 15 your best friend? (LuoMin)
- not really. but are good frens :)

Do you hate 12? (YaoYi)
- um no... why would i hate him?

Have you seen 18 in the last month? (Minyi)
- duhh.. It's me.

When was the last time you saw 16? (Michael)
- erm, a few hours ago.. in school =.=

have you been to 5's house? (Jonathan)
- no.

When’s the next time you’ll see 10? (SePent)
- in school a few hours later.

Are you close to 11? (Kenzo)
- not exactly, he's my junior.

Have you been to the movies with 4? (Pauline)
- erm I dun think so.

Have you gotten in trouble with 8? (Natalie)
- Hmm.. dun think so.

Would you give 19 a hug? (WenChing)
- Yes! I miss her loads!

When have you lied to 3? (HuiLin)
- um I dun think i lied to her before..

Is 11 good at socializing? (Kenzo)
- haha yeah.. should be. :P

Do you know a secret about 8? (Natalie)
- um no..

Describe the relationship between 12 and 18? (YaoYi and MinYi)
- um friends lo.

What’s the best thing about your friendship with 9? (NiJune)
-She's a great captain, great senior, and great friend!

What’s the worst thing about 6? (TeoYang)
- haha.. worst thing is that he's auntie? xD

Have you ever had a crush on 12? (YaoYi)
- um no.

How long have you known 2? (ShuHui)
- 4 months ++

Does 11 have a bf/gf? (Kenzo)
- i dont think so bah.

Have you ever wanted to punch 1 in the face? (Annette)
- why would i wanna do that?

Has 21 met your mother? (Trevis)
- For wad? lol..

How did you meet 11? (Kenzo)
- amkss Track and Field!

Did you ever accidentally physically hurt 3? (HuiLin)
- um yeah.. sometimes.

Do you live close to 7? (QiHuan)
- No, but i got direct bus from where she lives. lol.

What is 8’s favorite food? (Natalie)
- erm, bubbletea?

What kind of car does 1 have? (Annette)
- LOLS, haven of age yet..

Have you traveled anywhere with 9? (Nijune)
- Yeah! recently went Queensway tgt.

If you gave 14 $100, what would they spend it on? (Valerie)
- umm.. sweets? bubbletea? cookies? haha!

crap i didnt noe how to fill in the names! 21 ppl are like so many lo, so i just included my name inside lol.. well i dun restrict anyone to do this quiz cos i lazy go tag.. zzz.. PS! anyone they wanna do just copy and paste can lerhh..

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9:49:00 PM

♥ Sunday, April 5, 2009

This, is LIFE

just came back today evening from malaysia.. I should say it's rewarding yeah. learnt something about myself which i didnt noe before, and it's too late to change it now.. hmm.. and met many cousins whom i've never met for a long time already. and yeah, i finally have one day which i never really bothered about schoolwork and stuffs! relaxed (:

haiz have a sudden urge to run this days.. deprived of training for 3 days lerhh.. lol!
nationals coming soon.. hope that i'm able to do well! i have to improve in my 800m! crap!

why am i so useless? why did I take so long to realise this? now it's too late.. I cant change it already, can I?

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11:15:00 PM

♥ Thursday, April 2, 2009

This, is LIFE

well, screwed my english oral yesterday.. haix nvm bahh didn't expect to do well anyway. lessons today was quite okay, except the fact that I was damn tired. almost dozed off in the middle of chinese test today. I was like yawning and trying very hard to force my eyes open while writing the answers for comprehension. sucks lo. just managed to complete on time, without any time to check. zzz.. History lesson was next, and finally we didnt have to go to the computer lab, so I wont get distracted and not pay attention haha.. lol did mindmap, and i'm so proud of myself! yay! surprisingly i was sort of awake during the lesson. :P

English lesson was okay.. didnt do much. haha while some others was doin oral, I did suduku and finally dropped my head and slept, with the pen still at my hand. haha. I woke up sometime after, and saw Shimin sleepin oso. haha so I continued sleeping until lesson was over. Chem was sort of boring. goin through theory wb. den assembly. actually wanted to sleep, but the drama pieces were so damn entertaining!! enjoyed it a lot (:

training was fun, and yeah a bit slack. but i wanna say: I LOVE MY SPIKES!! so comfy haha.. lol. went for bbt after that, and chat a lot with xinling on the bus. and i learnt a lot of things from her. THANKS! :)

today there's no one at home ahaha, except me and my bro! the others went malaysia lerhh. haix and i'll be joining them on friday night, meaning i've to give acm 4 and 800m a miss. crap.. but oh well, it's over. shouldnt brood on it too much le. right, and now i'll play to my heart's content! yea!

maybe she's right.. I shouldnt be thinking of him.. haix.. get a grip on yourself minyi!! you shouldnt be thinking about all those things now! NATIONALS ARE COMING!!

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8:37:00 PM