I'm desperately tryin to control myself!
I just cant resist the temptation to watch the tv, or play..
I have to complete revisions and homework.. but yet..

dunno wad's wrong with me nowadays.. seriously.. can I emo for a few days? I dun feel like participating in any lessons now. I jus wan to have my own free time, to do wad I wan to do. didnt noe whether my staying at home was a good or a bad thing. cant go to support Heiriq, hL, and a few others in their acm 2. felt envious of them.. I had no chance to run. missing both acm 1 and 2, I really dunno how I feel when I was over there, supportin them. did I feel happy? or sad? I dunno. all I noe is I really wanted to run, that's all.

studies all of a sudden became very difficult. being in the top class had more stress, I noe that. but i didnt noe how to manage my time. everyday was packed fully. inclusive of time for me to play. but I played too much. spend so much time watchin tv, slacking.. den have to spend my sleepin time to do hw. I feel very tired. my eyes are gettin dryer and dryer.. I really hope for hols to come quickly.

first tests results are not up to expectations. talking about maths made my mood sinks down to the bottom again. i dunno wad to do to salvage the situation. I have alr done my best, yet... watching the happy faces of the others, I felt so dispirited. when can I be like them? the difference between sec 2 and sec 3 is too great. I've been slacking too much last year. now I cant adapt well..

hope I can do well for my SEQ tests next wk.. both SS and Hist suddenly felt very lost to me.. I cant seem to do well for them. my better parts is the SBQ parts. but I 'm not sure whether I'm able to score for the CH le.. haizz. let's hope for the best?

btw, Happy Birthday Jonathan Koh!!!
mus take care hor!! :D