tired..
I'm tired of everything, tired of studying, tired of doing hw, tired of organising things, tired of having to do so much things in such a little amount of time, tired of rushing for time.
but wad can I do? Life's unfair, and I can only accept this reality. I cant change anything, I cant always do the things I wan, I cant have everything to go my way.
My dad is stressing me about o levels on tues again. doesnt he noe that i'm alr very stressed? why mus he still put so much pressure on me? I may not be good at managing my time or wadever, but at least i noe wad i am doin and i'll plan time to study. sooner or l8r i'll breakdown again. wth. i'm becoming more nervous for the paper alr, and that is not a good thing. now den i realise my chinese language level isnt that great. wth, there's still many more words which i dun understand, but i shd noe.. haix. time is running out. if i dun complete my art today i cant hav time to study! ;(
Received my pay ytd.. hahas finally i've some extra money to spend? xD is it a good thing or a bad thing? idk...
I sort of regretted my decision last year. it was really a hasty decision, now that i realise. part of it came from my arrogance. I thot i could handle 9 subjects, or 10 subjects to be exact ( if i separate SS and history), which now i noe, I cant. art is actually the main cause of my stress, with so much commitments to handle, i cant cope well.. This is bad.. real bad.
quite a long post today, but no amount of words could explain the torment i'm going through these past few days. I'm burying myself in work, and trainings, to escape from reality. but i noe this wont change anything. I still have to face the same problems, they wont go away. I can only hope for the best, and nothing else..
